Sun Sep 27 2009 8:51pm PDT
Mood: annoyed
Music: Linken Park - In the End
life lately has been sad, disappointing, and yet productive. been so bored lately. no one ever wants to do anything i like to do. then all the girls i meet seem to be liars, money grubbers, and sluts, save for a few. i wonder to myself if there are any good ones left. havent seen much evidence these days. they are all so gullable. would rather have a lie than the truth. just a bunch of pretenders out there. im pretty sick of it.
i start working out at the gym tomorrow. finally! im going to be so sore this next couple weeks argh i sorta dread it and yet it will feel so good. need more gym clothes if we are going 5 days a week like jamal said.
heard disappointing but predictable news this week. i had hoped she wouldnt have come to this path but it seems the timing of this prediction was only delayed but not avoided. sad really. such hardship ahead, it feels like watching your favorite child go to jail for life, and there is nothing you can do. i had seen such a different life ahead only for it all to be squandered. and for what? chasing after the wind? i did what i could to try to stop it but ultimately, i failed.
i mostly dont care about much of anything lately. i tire of hearing peoples sob stories about crap they could have avoided. i am sick of hearing about peoples messed up relationships. go dump on someone else who still thinks you will listen to their advice. i dont want to hear about the people you are in love with either. nor do i want to talk about the girls i like. talking about them is pointless to me since they probably dont like me anyway. i hate false hope that someone would try to give. im pretty sick of hearing \"there is someone out there for you\". oh yeah? whats her name? what does she look like? can you see the future? no? i thought so. so annoying.