Mon Mar 02 2009 2:21pm PST
Mood: compassionate
Music: Lifehouse - Broken
I have gone through a lot since those few days. Working through the remnants of jealousy, envy, [insert other adjectives], to be me again. Not so much to be able to reconnect but to heal the parts of me that was shattered in those moments.
I knew months before the path you were to take. It wasn\'t a surprise to me when you gave me your answer and who it was. I knew. Not because someone told me though. I knew what was to come of it as well and when. Not the details just the major events.
I wanted so bad to tell you. To let you avoid it. I prayed that you would have, and maybe it could have been worse had I not. I\'ll never know. But what I do know is I couldn\'t tell you even though I wanted to do it. And I knew you wouldn\'t believe me anyway. It was a path you had to walk and I couldn\'t be there with you on it.
Even so, a part of me wanted you to have it. I know all too well how hard it is to find that. A part of me hoped for you that I was wrong and all really would work out. I know it isn\'t much to sympathize and these words won\'t help but I have nothing else to offer. *dedicates song*