Wed Oct 29 2008 9:21pm PDT
Mood: frustrated
Music: Metro Station - Shake It
After several days of thinking about it. I decided that I definitely can\'t be too friendly with girls I like. If they want to know me then it has to be on a date over dinner. Otherwise little to no interaction is gonna be allowed.
Something has to give. I can\'t let every girl I like be friends. What good does that do me? I have plenty of girls who I have no interest in to be my friends. I don\'t want to be someones brother or best friend (surely my gf will be my best friend but only when that time comes).
I have to draw the line somewhere or I\'m going to get no where with anyone. I\'m tired of getting to know great girls who I\'d love to have as my gf only to find I\'m stuck once again where I tried to avoid going. Fuck that I\'m not doing it anymore that\'s a promise.
To any future ones, I don\'t want to know you and will barely talk to you unless we are on a date. Anything less and I\'m moving along. Harsh? Maybe but I will kill this issue if it costs me and it has several times trying to be rid of it. I will win, believe it!
(UPDATE) Mean\'t to post this update long ago.
That Friday as I talked with friends at starbucks halloween evening. An idea for some middle ground to be had came to mind. That middle ground doesn\'t deny the above but adds one thing to it. That thing is: If I want to hang out with a girl that I like but is still only a friend then it must be with other friends around. The thought was further confirmed that sunday in service.